Things aren’t what we think them to be. I’ve been falling into very deep-thought mannered sessions lately, meditating on these thoughts with a good swim. I’ve come to realize just how insanely-amazingly-out of this world-ridiculous life is. it truly is something. So great that I honestly cannot even express myself about it, in the slightest of words. We truly do take everything for granted. Today, I did a self experiment. And this was to take everything just a step slower, to truly take in the situation, my surroundings, my feelings, thoughts, emotions etc. And wow was it great. We live life in such a rush, that it isn’t even funny. We miss so many things that are right before our eyes, but never take the time to actually slow down, and realize everything in our full presence. Just sitting down, and thinking about the rest of the world, and all of the things that are occurring at that VERY moment, truly is astounding. I feel so small. I mean, I have lived one hell of a life already, and have experienced SO many things that a ton of people never will experience, but I still feel like I haven’t done anything, when I realize just how many amazing possibilities there are to do! I can’t say what is in store for me in the future, but I know it will be great. Yeah times will totally suck here, and there. But there will also be some more times that I will never forget in this lifetime. I’ve met so many interesting and individually unique people throughout my life. And that’s just from a few states in this one country. I can’t even fathom whom else I will encounter throughout my life! haha damn it’s been one hell of a ride so far. I don’t know why I get carried away into these rants, cause I don’t think anyone else shares my passion for truly thinking about life. I am graduating high school in 2 weeks now. It’s crazy. Time really HAS gone by fast. I looked back at all the photos of me and my older brother today. From back when we were the best of friends, playing as little children on the playground. It always feels like it was just yesterday. And it’s the same with my friends. haha damn have I had some crazy experiences with my friends. All of which i’ll never forget. I remember all the different unique ways in which I met each and every one. And those too, felt like it was only yesterday. And when I look back on it, I truly regret all those opportunities to spend time with family or friends, that I did not take. But the past isn’t something to dwell on. I also thought about how people always judge others. It is our human nature. So i’m not going to be a hypocrite and say I haven’t. But I love actually getting to meet those people that I always thought were weird, crazy, mean, etc. It just so turns out, all the people I seemed so heavy toned on, all became very close friends of mine. It really is silly how humans function. And It really is fascinating how we all naturally long for a companion in life. Finding someone that truly shares your interests and admiration’s , and living with them, really is life changing. Some seek companionship to simply fulfill their longing for not being lonely. But to truly be in love, is completely different. after observing so many relationships, you really come to see what real love looks like. I also enjoy observing everyone in my surroundings, and just imagining their story. People are so quick to identify and label without hearing a word from their victim! I always wonder what people think of me. Probably that I am mean or boring. Maybe it’s true or not? I don’t know; that’s not for me to decide. I remember my freshman year of high school, I attended a random seminar with a randomly selected group of high school students, of all different backgrounds, ethnicity, etc. And during this session, we each told everyone our life story up to that point in our life. It really was eye opening. Just how unique, and individual everyone was. I always think about this when I hear about somebody dying. I always picture their life. Wondered what they experience from birth to that point. It’s of a magnitude of its own kind really. Maybe someday I will find a person to discuss these topics with. Do applaud yourself if you’ve read this far into this. It’s time to continue my journey through life.

Til my next cogitation,

Brandon Arnett.